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(CUT) Seulong (2AM) singing Nothing better to Shin Min Ah

2010-08-06T10:12:00.000-07:00

This episode is super cute...can die in total happiness

2010-08-01T07:07:00.000-07:00

ARGH FUCKING GIVE IT A REST WILL YA!!

Seriously who in the face of this world love to see anyone in despair?. Certainly not me.

I don't wanna tolerate this too much cause I know if i will ever go overboard, I'm bloody damn sure u're going to hate me.

But please the more u think, the more u just go with how the past is, U're going to be devoured with total sadness.

It's over dude, face it. Life has to fucking move on. I can't do much but I'm damn sure this fist of mine will.

Stop with the mushy mushy shit story and think about what life has install for us.

Why not I sent u a bottle of Vodka and drink ur sorrows away.

Accept it. Please for fuck sake PLEASE!!!.

2010-07-23T11:02:00.000-07:00

Hey me,

that me from back then, You don't have to worry

cause i'll soon find my way.

the things that i can do now.

the things that I can reach in my dreams. The place precious to me....

Never Shout Never - Your Biggest Fan - Live On Fearless Music

2010-07-18T00:07:00.000-07:00

check out that Gibson guitar!..sign~ money is the biggest issue in a teenager life.

this song totally fits my mood and yeah Justin Bieber eat ur hearts out!

For This Cycle - Closure Part 2 (Music Video)

2010-07-15T23:11:00.000-07:00

Give a moment to listen

2010-07-14T00:36:00.000-07:00

If you’re skinny, people will call you anorexic.
If you’re intelligent, people will call you a smartass.
If you’re pretty, people will call you fake.
No matter what, people will always find something wrong with you.
The trick? Just don’t give a fuck.

Fuck yeah it's so true

2010-07-13T09:54:00.001-07:00

HELLO

FFFUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKK ARGH!!!

OKAE BYE.... My mind is blank like totally blank!

2010-07-09T19:26:00.000-07:00

I guess i'm pretty much wasting my time with all this thoughts.

let's face reality, it's ugly. Does anyone agree with that??. Like the truth, it's ugly too, but not always. There's always a good side
and a bad side, it's all in equilibrium. No point having a flawless life, it serves no meaning then.

Yeah I have my fair share of good and bad. Well not to say most of them are good, I do have times when bad are consider the larger percentage. In time I've lost alot and gain some, like they say Humankind cannot gain anything without first giving something in return. To obtain, something of equal value must be lost. Sounds familiar? well that is alchemy's First Law of Equivalent Exchange. Okae i'm guessing i gone overboard with this post till there's matter about alchemy. Hahahaha.

Well looks like 29 July is the date I'll be looking forward with. Lasalle * sign* . Should I be happy that I made it this far?, cause right now the state I'm in disapprove with happy. I'm like an emo boy who's all sad and devour by vengeance. This world is cruel, very cruel indeed. To the point where everything I have ever love starts to fade.

2010-07-04T06:11:00.000-07:00

Just another update...
At times when i sit or lie down with the shadow as a companion,my mind would drift away,thinking of almost everything i happen to think of and it somehow boils down to one thing.I really am screwing up myself. Am I being paranoid?

Something inside me just irked me to blog now.
maybe it's the fatigue and sickness from watching the world cup, 2 hours of sleep daily, practicing skateboarding, soccer training, jogging, house work and filling up my stomach with junkies!. Well that's my current lifestyle, intriguing isn't it?.

2010-07-01T10:07:00.000-07:00

Grab a lipton tea bag and drink it. For those in need of some inspiration or just drink it for the taste.
Well it does wonders but just don't forget to add 3 tablespoons of sugar.
ok it does wonders to me but I'm not quiet sure with u guys, could be a toss up? so go figure.

First thing first, below this post there's a very emo log. You can choose to ignore it or for once be glad that Haikal wrote something like this. Well be thankful because I hate myself for writing such straight to the point post. So there has been a lot of speculation about why i'm in such a rotten mood. But I'm not that kind who like to empathize. I don't care about back seat driver nor people who are all barks and no bites. But hey whatever! I live such a long period of time to learn that I've got people who cares for me. I know I got good fortune and this massive outpouring support and passion from so many people has be overwhelming for me. I got people around me that made this sad situation joyous and inspirational. As to them, I can never ever thank you enough for the kindness to me and I will think about it for the rest of my life. But all I ask particularly to my friends and family, don't ever be cynical. I hate cynicism, for the record it's my least favorite qualities and it doesn't lend you to anywhere. Nobody in life gets exactly what they thought they were going to get but if u work really hard and you are kind, amazing things will happen.

2010-06-28T08:11:00.000-07:00

I've had a much better appreciation for all the people I've known personally, and as family and friends, but I still can't get over the frustration, the guilt and empathy I have for everyone.There's good in all of us and I think I simply love people too much, so much that it makes me feel too fucking sad. I have a goddess of a mum who sweats ambition and empathy and a brother who reminds me too much of what i used to be, full of love and joy, making his girl smile because she is good and will do him no harm. And that terrifies me to the point to where I can barely function. I can't stand the thought of anyone becoming the miserable, self-destructive, death rocker that I've become. I have it good, very good, and I'm grateful, but since the age of eighteen, I've become hateful towards all humans in general. Only because it seems so easy for people to get along that have empathy. Only because I love and feel sorry for people too much I guess. Thank you all from the pit of my burning, nauseous stomach for your words and your concern during the past years. I'm too much of an erratic, moody baby! I don't have the passion anymore, and so remember, it's better to burn out than to fade away.

2010-06-24T23:32:00.000-07:00

I'm Back...wait there should be a (!).
Okae so yeah hooray for me.

So what's the catch people?
It's been awhile right?. so yeah I have a lot to catch up on.
So enough with the welcome back wagon, I'm here today with a little log to write. ( Don't worry, it's not gonna be long so save your long faces for later ).

So yeah I'm 19 already, ain't a big deal. But to be honest this year has been a weirdly different birthday. I've like a shower of wishes that i would never expected ( I'm just saying and not bragging ) and for the very first time in my life, i've receive a birthday cake from anyone ( and yes I've shed tears but was good at hiding it cause I'm a 19 years old man ). I've like to say thank you to everyone and by everyone i meant even the auntie who clean and water the plants at my corridor area!.

Ok back to what has been going on around me for the past months or weeks. Why i choose things happening around me and not what has been happening to me? it's because, My life's too uninteresting and dull at the moment to keep tabs on and i've no intention to colour it if u get what i mean. Ok so there has been a lot of love lost. Heartbreaks mostly and It's a shame to see such relationship ending in such a manner. Its amazing how fast humans can move on and be oblivious to as if anything happened at all. And how durably excuses can be made. Well let this be a lesson to everyone, Once bitten, twice shy.

As for me, I'm very rusty in this love stuff cause it's been awhile since i actually love anyone in the different gender. But once she comes,i'll receive her with open arms. But that's up to God cause he is the only one that knows who i will be with. Even if the girl that I've waited for 2 years not gonna be mine, I've to face the reality and learn to move on.

2010-04-24T22:13:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone who bother to visit my blog, Thank you for ur willing ness to atleast spent a minute or two to read about what's going on in my over stress mind.

To the extend of me not having anything to write and lazy to get a story on and going, I like to say goodbye to this 3years old blog.

I can still continue using it but I don't like to brag about my life nor I want to write about something and pretend to be liking it. Review about something interesting?..well I feel that it's like trying way too hard or as if I know so much about it.

so yeah this blog is totally dead as for now.
but u guys can kindly use that chatbox and ask me question and stuff.. I try to get back with ya if i bother to check it out
so goodbye~